I want a close, personal relationship with reality...
John Hinckley was certain he had a close personal relationship with Jodie Foster, Chapman was equally certain he had a close personal relationship with John Lennon. A person with a fetish develops a close personal relationship to an inanimate object.
In all three cases, the object of affection wasn't even aware that the admirer (read, stalker) was alive.
So, my question would be if you claim a 'close personal relationship with Jesus/God, and you really can't claim you have 'evidence' that doesn't boil down to warm fuzzy feelings gleaned from reading a book of fables or talking to yourself, what makes you different from a garden variety delusional stalker?
Christianity: A disgusting middle eastern blood cult, based in human sacrifice, with sacraments of cannibalism and vampirism, whose highest icon is of a near naked man hanging in torment from a device of torture.