Hi forum, I'm drunk
I got a badge! I am silver. That's cool. Is there criteria behind using the official RSS badge as my avatar?
I'm drunk cause last september my wife of 10 years left me and took our 10 year old daughter, and I am aware of the ramifications of the effect that will have on her still developing psychology, but there's not a damn thing I can do about it. The story is about 5 years ago I had a lesbian friend, who I became close with, due to me not trying to get in her pants, and her respecting that. (she's hot and gets hit on a lot.) The wife became jealous and knew in good faith that I must be having an affair with this girl literally half my age who doesn't even like men.
I came home from work one day and she told me, "If you love her, I will let you go and move on, and accept it." I was astounded. I have never been unfaithful, even in my heart. And there was nothing I could do or say to convince her otherwise. So, she started cheating, gradually over the years. Until she finally just left. So, I'm better off, but that daughter...which isn't entirely true, I regret a failed marriage, I married for life. Is that western religion rhetoric? I don't even know. We are raised in a Western religous culture, it informs our personalities even if we call ourselves atheistic, don't you think?
Anyway, that's my life. I quit my job and live on my military pension and drink all the time. And that is the american govt. Thank you very much. Without the welfare, she wouldn't have been able to leave me as easily, and without my pension from my military, I wouldn't be able to drink myself to death, ala "Leaving Las Vegas". I am not seeking comfort (at an atheist site?), nor am I "reaching out for help". Simply stating my life and intentions. Yeah yeah, I know there is a daughter that needs me still. I do what I can. I'm also as aware as I can be about the affects of seperation or death of parental figures on a personage of that age.
Say, can anyone point me to some of the more entertaining Jean or Jean like threads? I read his main one "God may hate you" and that was totally hilarious. Elijahtruth is pretty fun also, but mostly unreadable. I read his first few sentences and last few, and mainly look to the responses from other members for material.