Man, it's been a LONG time...
It's hard to find a really solid place to start again from, but I guess life isn't always easy and you have to jump in with both feet whether you're ready or not. So, here, goes...
How's everyone doing? This isn't my first time to this site. I signed up about three years ago after seeing Brian and Kelly's dismantling of Kirk and Ray. Really admired their guile and candor to oust those dimwitted, close minded dangers of social reform. I've always struggled to understand why people can't just open up more and take a step back to see what they're doing isn't helping anyone or themselves, but I digress. After signing up here, I started posting and trying to get as involved as I could because, for the first time, I felt accepted and unhindered; free thinking, intellectually brazen individuals that I could relate to. Finally, I could be myself. It wasn't long until I got my blogger badge and was really up and running, posting stuff that was on my mind, getting active in the community here and cementing my place among you all. I even thought about contributing my own personal time to promote this organization as well as my earnings to make sure everyone knew that this was the place to take the gloves off and stop hiding in the shadows; where your voice would be heard, opinions respected and openness embraced.
Well, it wasn't like that after awhile. I felt a little bitter from a few people and comments. I felt like my voice was being snuffed out by arrogance and pseudo-intellectual blather. I no longer wanted to be here.
I won't go into details, but drama ensued and I left this organization and haven't looked back...until now.
You're probably asking why come back now? Why are you even wasting your time if you hate it here so much? Why make the effort when it's clear you dislike the community?
A lot has changed in the past few years. Quite a lot actually. For one, I ended my seven year relationship about a year ago so, that chapter in my life is over. It was an awkward period and I'm glad it's all behind me. I grew to dislike a lot of things and really became a socially inept individual and it carried over to places like this at times. Now, I'm not saying it was a direct correlation with my problems with the members around here, but my attitude certainly didn't help me in being constructive about the whole ordeal; just exacerbated things. That's one thing.
However, as a direct result of my new found single status, I started to doubt myself and really question whether I wanted to stay in this morbidly fucked up reality. If it wasn't for a buddy of mine, I probably wouldn't have lasted very long. At my lowest point, he taught me how to pick myself back up, to improve my social standing, to focus my hatred, disdain, anger and contempt; to undergo a metamorphosis in how I felt about my world. He laid the foundation; I took that and built a fucking mental fortress. I embarked on a journey to become more open-minded and even more aware than ever before; to begin a new era of awakening. Being just a non-believer wasn't cutting it for me; I had to find out more. Over the past two years, I've been desperately immersing my thoughts into social reform and why it needs to happen QUICK. I've been exposed to so much information in the past two years that my brain is about to burst. I've listened to the likes of Peter Joseph and Jacque Fresco of The Zeitgeist Movement and The Venus Project respectively (they split from each other recently) for so long that I've even begun my own Zeitgeist chapter in my community. I'm so on board with these ideas that it keeps me up at night with frustration as to why these methods aren't being implemented faster. Then I started to clear the fog, relax and slowly begin to understand the situation...
People just aren't ready to adopt any of this. Oh, sure, we have our movement, but that's all it is. We have concepts, sound reasoning, very detailed explanations on what we can do to improve and frameworks detailing a very strong and very put together society. People are too scared to make these drastic alterations to their very automaton-like lives. I don't blame them really; how would you feel if a large group of people said you're living in denial, your life is governed by the upper 1% and that the choices you make are calculated every minute of every day by a cold, cast iron economic hand? You'd laugh and continue to deny everything. I've come to accept this and it hasn't phased me from questioning my motives with this movement or deterred my plans to get the ball rolling. Why? To put it simply, the mere fact that I am willing to go out of my way and sacrifice my comfort, possibly my safety and my money speaks volumes. Another main motivation is that I'm brutally honest, truthful and direct to people that get fed lies every day; it keeps me going. It's what I am all about; the genuine article. You will not put me down, say I'm a Socialist/Communist/Marxist or any other bullshit labels and you will NOT divert my morals just because yours are all screwed up in a system where "normal" is your reality of being one of the self-appointed guardians of the "status quo."
This brings me to why I'm back here. To put it bluntly, I need to surround myself with as many free thinkers as I possibly can from all walks of life no matter how I feel about them. Everyone here that has publicly denounced religion as a giant profiteering farce to regulate social control has the right idea; now we need to really up the game. Take back your communities, get active in local politics, hold meetings about the RRS and, if you belong to it, The Zeitgeist Movement. What we are living in now will slowly come to an end if we just sit on the sidelines and become nothing more than talking heads. I hope everyone here will take initiatives and help each other out through these shitty times because we're all in the same boat.
You'll be seeing me around here more if you'll have me. I look forward to talking to each and every one of you. Later.