Why I Don't Believe

Bahana's picture

I grew up in a home with a devout Christian mother and a father who was not religious. My father would rarely talk about religion, or try to discourage those beliefs, most likely out of respect to my mother. Most of my elementary school years were spent at a Christian school. During my early teen years I became rebellious and questioned many things authority figures told me including Christianity. With the help of a kind Christian man from my church I reconnected with the religion and began to really enjoy studying the Bible. I thought that if I studied it close enough I could find out the truth behind where we came from and answers to the big questions in life. I became very involved in church youth groups, played guitar in a band during church services, and even led bible studies later on. During my college years my beliefs began to shift. The world didn't seem as black and white as before. There were many questions that Christians couldn't answer in a way that made sense to me. Questions like, "If Jesus is the only way to heaven, does that mean the people in the Americas before the 15th century went to hell?" This caused me to go on a search studying various world religions. I figured it was only fair to see what other religions had to say since I'd devoted so much time to Christianity. It all came to a head in early 2005. When I was downloading various audio files on the Internet about different issues, I came across a debate between creationist Kent Hovind, and biologist Massimo Pigliucci, on evolution. This debate took place on Reginald Finley's internet radio show "Live with The Infidel Guy." One thing Pigliucci said caused a spark to go off in my head. It was, "Anything could be explained with the intervention of a supernatural being. There is absolutely nothing, by definition, since a supernatural being can do whatever the heck he pleases, there is absolutely nothing, there is no observation that could possibly not be explained referring to the existence, or the actions, of a supernatural being." This got me on the road to seriously question the value of supernatural explanations. After listening to this show, I went to the infidelguy.com site and listened to more shows. Much of what I heard rang true. It was also exciting to learn things about science and evolution that I never knew before. Evolution is NOT a theory of random chance as I once thought. Being very familiar with the Bible also made the philosophical arguments against the concept of the Christian god really stand out. At first I called myself an agnostic instead of an atheist. It took a while to get used to the label since I used to think atheism was a dirty word. Now I realize that since these god concepts are so nonsensical there is good reason to lack a belief in a god. This is where I am now. Oddly enough, I still like to study the Bible. For me, it is much easier to understand when you just take it as ancient literature, rather than trying to make excuses for it, or turn it into an idol, as many do. I think it would be a great blessing to humanity if people were not taught these superstitious beliefs at such a young age. Making faith a virtue lays poor groundwork for critical thought. I'd still like to know the truth. This is a better way.

digitalbeachbum's picture

Your path sounds similar to

Your path sounds similar to many of us; and I can personally say several of your experiences mentioned are what I experienced.

I love using the "little child" tool on relatives who tell me Jesus is the only path to eternal life. I simply say, "Why" to every thing they tell me.

"Jesus died on the cross to save you from your sins"

"why"

"Because he loves you"

"why"

"Because he does"

"why"

"You are a child of god"

"why"

"because it says so in the bible"

"why"

"Forget it... I'm not going to worry any more if you go to hell or not"

"why"

lol...

 

 

Atheistextremist's picture

Nice post, Bahana

 

Yeah, I like Massimo Pigliucci, too. His book Nonsense on Stilts was a cracker.

 

Just sayin

 Excuse me English,not first language.

Bahana- your story sounds just like mine.i started as atheist.unfortunately mine went to extremes I almost couldn't get out of.

Christ exists,he has pulled me out of very dark spaces where there was no hope.i have seen him with my own eyes 5 years ago and still today I still have difficulty keeping strong faith sometimes.i can imagine how difficult it is for people who have never seen him at all.i do think they who have never seen or heard from him r the most special.

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.never listen to any1 tell you about God nonexistance.but God himself

God bless.

Intellects can start shredding now.

 

 

GodsUseForAMosquito's picture

Really? What did he look

Really? What did he look like? Was he caucasian or middle eastern? 

How did you know it was really him?

 

Beyond Saving's picture

 Wait a minute, I thought

 Wait a minute, I thought Jesus wasn't supposed to be coming back until the end of the world... Holy Ixtab, the Mayans were right about the end of the world!

If, if a white man puts his arm around me voluntarily, that's brotherhood. But if you - if you hold a gun on him and make him embrace me and pretend to be friendly or brotherly toward me, then that's not brotherhood, that's hypocrisy.- Malcolm X

Bahana's picture

How did you start as an

 

"Bahana- your story sounds just like mine.i started as atheist.unfortunately mine went to extremes I almost couldn't get out of.

Christ exists,he has pulled me out of very dark spaces where there was no hope.i have seen him with my own eyes 5 years ago"

 

 

How did you start as an atheist? Did you have parents that were? Tell us more about Jesus appearing to you. If some supernatural being really wants to show himself to me, I'm open to that.

GodsUseForAMosquito's picture

 Everyone starts as an

 Everyone starts as an atheist - we may get programmed into some religion or other as we grow up, but no baby has any knowledge of religion or god.

Bahana wrote:  It all came

Bahana wrote:
 It all came to a head in early 2005. When I was downloading various audio files on the Internet about different issues, I came across a debate between creationist Kent Hovind, and biologist Massimo Pigliucci, on evolution. This debate took place on Reginald Finley's internet radio show "Live with The Infidel Guy." One thing Pigliucci said caused a spark to go off in my head.  

We go back a long way man... I was right there with you.  

I left religion because of the website that Reggie formed with Jake which is now defunct AtheistNetwork.com. 

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