Just another Infidel
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Seems I have a slightly different story from many I've seen here. I identified very much with INFIDEL by Ayaan Hirsi Ali. Despite the differences in our faiths, she had many of the same experiences and asked many of the same questions as I did.
I was raised in the church. A modern and, what I thought at the time, fairly forward thinking Mennonite Church. But not only was I raised there...I BELIEVED! I think the first time I "accepted the holy spirit" I was around five. I remember going for long walks and thinking I could hardly wait to die so I could get to heaven. I used to repent for days if I so much as THOUGHT the words, "Oh my God!" I served on the committees and was even president of the youth group. I bought the whole thing hook, line and sinker...for a very long time. The thing is....I did have questions, very early on. But I allowed them to be answered by what I called "faith" at the time. Also, I never really felt like I fit in. Try as I might I couldn't seem to form good friendships. And when my husband joined (also a Menno, but thankfully just as open to change and free thinking as I was) he felt the same way. It took a lot of years, but eventually we figured out that we, very simply, had nothing in common with these people. Over the years, thanks to having 3 kids, and life just getting busier, our attendance declined. And I found myself asking more questions. A lot of very tough questions. Then I started writing. I took up writing erotica novels, and the open-minded stance towards all things sexual began to open my mind even further...to all sorts of things. Eventually I came to the only--and obvious--rational conclusion. And here I am. I can't tell you how good it felt the first time I allowed myself to say the word "fuck" and not feel like I had to repent for 3 days. LOL
I HAVE lost friends thanks to my beliefs, but of course what kind of friends were they to start with? My parents are the only ones I choose to actively protect from my beliefs (or lack therein), but that is only because they're in their mid-80's, and confiding this would serve no purpose other than to cause them pain.
I am now the mother of 3 of the smartest, most fun, most amazing teenage boys on the planet. I have a wonderful, supportive husband whom I enjoy more every day. I write smutty novels and teach workshops where I spew dirty words in front of dozens of people. And I have never had more fun. I live in Southern Ontario Canada.
And that, in a rather large nutshell...is me. This place looks like fun.
Char
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you have the coolest fucking life ever. welcome.
"I have never felt comfortable around people who talk about their feelings for Jesus, or any other deity for that matter, because they are usually none too bright. . . . Or maybe 'stupid' is a better way of saying it; but I have never seen much point in getting heavy with either stupid people or Jesus freaks, just as long as they don't bother me. In a world as weird and cruel as this one we have made for ourselves, I figure anybody who can find peace and personal happiness without ripping off somebody else deserves to be left alone. They will not inherit the earth, but then neither will I. . . . And I have learned to live, as it were, with the idea that I will never find peace and happiness, either. But as long as I know there's a pretty good chance I can get my hands on either one of them every once in a while, I do the best I can between high spots."
--Hunter S. Thompson
WHAT? THREE KIDS AND YOU DON'T THINK GOD GAVE THEM TO YOU? ...............Never mind all the eggs you had that went to period or all the sperm he produced that went nowhere. You are an ungrateful human to not suck up to magic and accept reality. IT IS NOT CALLED LUCK.......IT IS CALLED UTOPIA.....IT IS CALLED MAGIC....IT IS CALLED GOD!
And welcome BTW.
"We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus -- and nonbelievers."Obama
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Welcome to the forum..
If the Bible was a movie, it wouldn't exactly be rated "G".
Hey! Let's teach our kids about drunken incest. Transfer this story to some other medium, mask the origin, and I'm pretty certain parents wouldn't want us teaching this to their kids. Much less fighting like zealots to make it part of the schools curriculum.
Genesis 19:30-36
30And Lot went up out of Zoar, and dwelt in the mountain, and his two daughters with him; for he feared to dwell in Zoar: and he dwelt in a cave, he and his two daughters.
31And the firstborn said unto the younger, Our father is old, and there is not a man in the earth to come in unto us after the manner of all the earth:
32Come, let us make our father drink wine, and we will lie with him, that we may preserve seed of our father.
33And they made their father drink wine that night: and the firstborn went in, and lay with her father; and he perceived not when she lay down, nor when she arose.
34And it came to pass on the morrow, that the firstborn said unto the younger, Behold, I lay yesternight with my father: let us make him drink wine this night also; and go thou in, and lie with him, that we may preserve seed of our father.
35And they made their father drink wine that night also: and the younger arose, and lay with him; and he perceived not when she lay down, nor when she arose.
36Thus were both the daughters of Lot with child by their father.
Your mind will answer most questions if you learn to relax and wait for the answer. - William S. Burroughs
I love smutty novels also and I too live in Southern Ontario, Mississauga #10 & Eglington area. Welcome on board ad what are the book titles??
"Very funny Scotty; now beam down our clothes."
VEGETARIAN: Ancient Hindu word for "lousy hunter"
If man was formed from dirt, why is there still dirt?
Welcome!
Our revels now are ended. These our actors, | As I foretold you, were all spirits, and | Are melted into air, into thin air; | And, like the baseless fabric of this vision, | The cloud-capped towers, the gorgeous palaces, | The solemn temples, the great globe itself, - Yea, all which it inherit, shall dissolve, | And, like this insubstantial pageant faded, | Leave not a rack behind. We are such stuff | As dreams are made on, and our little life | Is rounded with a sleep. - Shakespeare
Pleased to meet you...A porn writing atheist - what fun.
Anybody interested can find my "stuff" at www.nikkisoarde.com Shhh...don't tell my mom.
Welcome to the forums, I live in southern Ontario as well, Etobicoke to be exact, close to jefferick. I must say I am glad my Dad never let his family or my mom's family influence (not that this was a problem as they all live in Argentina and we are here in the cold lovely north) me with religion, he always said it would be my choice....and I am thankful that he let me make my own choice in life regarding religion. It's a much of crap in my view but hey everyone is entitled to their views. Although my mom does believe in a god, it's not in the religious sense, more of a deist sense.
Welcome Char!!
Slowly building a blog at ~
http://obsidianwords.wordpress.com/
I write for a living too but it's boring shit about electronics and networking. I'd like to slot one of your stories into an editorial of mine. That would get some electricity flowing.
Might increase my subs, too.
"Experiments are the only means of knowledge at our disposal. The rest is poetry, imagination." Max Planck
I have friends in Etobicoke! He writes an atheist blog, as well! Must be something in the water. lol
Good luck on the editorial. Could prove to be...enlightening.
And, btw....I just noticed the ads on this page. A Christian Singles website? SERIOUSLY??!!! WTF!
Yeah - it's linked to what the discussion is. Mention god and the christian and muslim singles ads start popping up. Funny none of them is wearing a cardigan and string shoes.
"Experiments are the only means of knowledge at our disposal. The rest is poetry, imagination." Max Planck
Welcome!
I hope you aren't a Leafs fan...
Enlightened Atheist, Gaming God.
welcome to the dark side. we tend to have more fun.
Hell...I don't even like hockey! I'm such a rebel.
Hell...I don't even like hockey! I'm such a rebel.