I've been an atheist since I was about 13. I just turned 17 a few months ago. My parents are fundamentalists who have more or less forced me to go to church 2-3 times/week for the past 3-4 years. I complied to avoid conflict and punishment.
For the past few weeks I have refused to go. I expected to have basically everything electronic taken away for weeks or even months; which is what kept me going for so long, even though I'm disgusted by the disgusting preachments I had to hear.
Instead I have not been punished at all, and my mother is attempting to blackmail me emotionally. She has cirrhosis of the liver from being fat all her life, she has never drank. She tells me I'm "breaking her heart" and she "can't take the stress." She can't believe how I have left the faith she brainwashed me into and her father to her in favor of "some idiot on the internet," that idiot being Hitchens.
I immediately called bullshit but honestly I just don't know how to deal with this. She isn't being intentionally dishonest. The stress comes from her childish need to have everyone subscribe to her cultish beliefs. I have tried to be respectful and considerate, but have sometimes resorted to insult in defending myself.
She thinks it's just a few hours/week and doesn't understand why I won't just submit. But of course it's more than that, I feel disgusted at the vile tenants of her religion. When I see young kids being brainwashed I feel sick to my stomach. It's about completing my intellectual independence from the Stone Age that I started years ago. Any advice or discussion would be appreciated.