Harsh Reality; Your God is Sick in the Head
When I was a christian, there was one question I could absolutely find no logical answer to. How can your God be so cruel? I know it's an old question, but no christian can come up with a reasonable answer.
When I first left christianity, I dove back into drugs and alchohol. I'm not throwing a pity party here, but life had thrown me some pretty brutal shit to deal with. Before I pretended that my god helped rid me of the hatred and bitterness in my heart, but it was a lie.
After realizing that I had been poisoned with religion, and feeling betrayed and humiliated, my anger grew to a level I never imagined. I held no regard for human life and became a functioning misanthrope. I got to the point where I believed harsh and direct action should be taken by any man with courage to rid the world of injustice and to bring what I believed to be mercy to those who could not find it themselves. For example, I thought any child born with extreme deformities and no hope of having a normal, fulfilling life, should be put to death at birth, regardless of what the parents wished or believed.
I eventually calmed down and embraced the little shred of the peaceful nature I had left. I now know that it is not up to me or anyone else to make these decisions because there is not a definite line between good or bad, and right and wrong.
However, I wouldn't be honest if I didn't admit that when I see a child born with such grotesque deformities, such as "the girl without a face" Juliana Whetmore, that I don't think that no one deserves to go thru life like that, and should we be able to make the decision to spare someone like her from a assured life of humiliation and disparity. And you know the parents can't help but to wish deep down that maybe it would have been a merciful act to spare her of the horrors to come. Of course, you see clips of a child like that playing around and seemingly happy, but that will be short-lived. You won't see the clips of the child in school being cruelly tormented.
If you believe in the all-knowing God, how do you justify his actions?
If you are an atheist, can you admit you have had the same kind of thoughts? If you truly haven't, do you think I am just a bad person?
"...but truth is a point of view, and so it is changeable. And to rule by fettering the mind through fear of punishment in another world is just as base as to use force." -Hypatia