Hello All, I am new here.
I am a newbie here. Man, I had trouble even finding this site some time ago, (or finding it again). The first time I was here, pissed off for some "reason", I posted up something to Angie the AntiTheist from Sinner Ministries on the Proof of God. Yes, I came under another name then, and was frankly scared I'd be found out and kicked off this site when I returned. This is the stupid link I gave, (http://www.proofthatgodexists.org/welcome.php). Please guys, gals, look at it and tell me what you all think. After going through an transformation, or rather an evolution, (basically, taking a good hard look at what those atheists were talking about), I have come to finally know that my beliefs in Jesus Christ, God, The Holy Ghost, (all somehow different but the same), are false.
You guys, I've been raised as a Baptist, then tried the "Non-Denominational" approach at a very young age. It took me nineteen plus years to realize my mistakes. During that time period, Interdenominational approaches were offered to me by people I became friends with at the Campus Crusade for Christ, Jehovah's Witnesses witnessed to me over time, Mormon elders visited me at college one season, a Hare Krishna monk bumped into me at the Mall of America, I've tried another church, blah blah...and I've been struggling to understand WHO I AM, and what the HELL everything is, where the HELL it all came from, and WHY.
LIST OF THOSE FAITHS AND WHAT BECAME OF THEM IN MY LIFE:
*Baptist Experience: "Solid Rock" Baptist Church was a failure, losing many of its members to rumor and hate, (or so I heard)
*Non-Denominational Experience: It's basically over, though I still need to tell my former pastor what I know now. As far as beliefs in the "Holy" Bible at all, along with scary stuff like how we all were slapped on the face by an angel who took away our memories of Heaven, Four Eternal Abodes, Mother and Father Wickedness, etc., I hate it all-there is NO proof. Damn, the time I've wasted. Beliefs from this experience also taught me NOT to cower in fear at the presence of Homosexuals, Satanists, Atheists, and oh damn I forgot the last one. Wait I remember-Hypocrites. Love is something I offered all people. No discrimination. Damn. I'm Black for God's sake. I better understand that one.
*Interdenominational Experience: Doesn't work. How can you get ALL of the denominations to agree on ANYTHING completely, especially IF the WORD OF GOD is perfect and able to unite people, on top of that it "predestined" the Children of GOD, (But OH wait it didn't, According to God-WHO GAVE US CHOICES)? WTF. What I meant here is this. God is a Contradictory Mess. PLUS this Campus Crusade for Christ is messed up, they are made of mostly good folk who are misguided HIGHLY. Perhaps some who willingly blind them. They're actually Fundamentalists. I feel sorry for them now. For awhile, a Long While, I thought we Christians were the persecuted. Nope.
*Jehovah's Witnesses: Man, why do they have these dudes and mostly old ladies come out every summer, to hand you a pamphlet, EVEN IF you claim you believe in God, which I once did. I keep getting these "Awake" books. Please. One title on a book was : "IS BELIEF IN A GOD REASONABLE?" Lemme tell ya I know what this belief has done to folks my mom knows. Messed them UP. No birthdays? Come on!
*Mormons: While I have a Book of Mormon at home, (which for a time I forgot we had), Idk...its dumb. My dad's one too.
* Hare Krishna: He thinks His God is the "All Attractive One". Handed me a book. Lost it. Damn. hehe.
Anyway feel free to comment. I've gotta leave the Caribou at the MOA.
I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.
"God, I trusted you. I loved you, I even, while angry, repented of anger before you, but you suck. And you know what really hurts? I'M TALKING TO MYSELF."