I paid for a Deluxe Life package, and I got this!
I put off doing this, or at least I didn't see an intro with my handle on it.
OK, who am I?
6'4" (1.9m) tall, 230 lbs.(104k), green eyes(hazel), formerly black hair turned gray and
receding. really fair skinned, but tanned all over somewhat (grin).
Although born in Louisiana and mostly living in Mississippi, I have had many people
be unable to ID my accent. A fact I take a bit of pride in. Deep fried in Baptist theology, but my interest in classical mythology, horror legends, and sci-fi probably helped me develop a somewhat rational mind. I found superhero comics at 13 and being a
visually oriented person, I was hooked. I was probably also drawn to the power they
had. They didn't have to suffer. They could make a real difference in their lives and
others. I have owned and read over 3000 sci-fi books, and comics too. I found I have
an aptitude for computers, and have been proficient in many programs and hardware
including proramming in HTML. Not too up-to-date on networking, though.
I was very troubled by religion. I couldn't reconcile the prohibitions against sex with
my own natural desires. It scared me so bad when I looked at a girl, that I couldn't
deal with girls at all. I became seriously depressed. I continually questioned
everything, because there must be a way for the religion everyone claimed to believe
to make sense, after all, they seemed to not be having such a problem with it. Since I
did, I must be doing something really wrong. Long story short, I finally realized that
the relgion is what didn't make sense. Everyone else was just ignoring it and doing
what their bodies told them to anyway. Still couldn't shake the guilt, and at 40 I was
still alone and so depressed I was suicidal. I couldn't go on so I got help.
I found out I wasn't alone, others had problems like mine. I realized that the religion
had stolen all my best years. I found a woman, went back to school, got a degree, got
a good job (for this area anyway), and am living fairly well considering I never thought
I'd live beyond 40 or be with a woman or own a decent house. I am somewhat irrational about religion. I want it wiped out, because I can see that it will always only
hurt people, some worse than others. Some it will destroy or kill. Whatever good it
might accomplish is not worth the detriment it costs. I firmly believe that we would
have a much more scientifically advanced culture and a more free and equal society by now, a virtual utopia, if we had gotten rid of religion centuries ago.
I have a poem published in Covalence Magazine (covalencemag.org?) issue 3, which they should put online at some point. I did an article for Flashback Universe blog. I wrote an article for Exchristians.net. All this year, and all unpaying (lol). I have written
poems, short stories, and even a screen play (just to say I did), all unpublished.
I want a more secular, open minded, freedom loving world, but I can barely survive.
So I write comments online here and there hoping I can make a small contribution to the things I feel so strongly about.