Hello I thought I'd give it another chance.
I doubt the existence of god.
But then again, I doubt existence itself sometimes.
I would consider myself an atheist, regretably. I don't seem to agree with many atheists on anything.
A few weeks ago i made a huge mistake by telling people how I think that 9/11 was a conspiracy. but there are so many facts and figures that point to a conspiracy, and so many others that can disprove it,and so many sources that have been tainted by there own ambitions on either side of the argument, that I simply gave up, the rabbit hole is too deep.
So far I've got a bad taste in my mouth from this website. And I thought that I would leave, but I'm a glutton for punishment i guess so i'm back.
You see I don't think its religion that I find fault with as much as absolutism and materialism.
At one time as a child I believed in a God, but I rebelled against his absolutism, before I doubted his existence.
and I find myself here, rebelling against another form of absolutism.
When most atheists and theists talk, it as if they are on a political smeer campaign, and neither one can conceed even one valid point to the other. its like being forced to vote for one president when you can see that their both full of shit, so you just vote for the one that you think is less full of shit, and complain about him the whole time he's in office.
I find it funny how some atheists are convinced that there is no god, in the same way that theists are convinced that there is one. I find so much hipocracy on either side of the argument. I find it rediculous and self serving when atheist scientists go out of there way to disprove the existence of god, and theists who claim to rely on faith go out of there way to prove that god exists.
It seems that atheists try to prove to theists that there idea of god (man with beard in clouds with inferiority complex) doesn't exist. I would have to agree with them on that, but to say that a higher power doesn't exist, is a jump. the wind and water is a higher power than us. and it certainly seems to exist, there are many things and unthings that we have not discovered yet. to be so sure that they do not exist, when we no more about the moon than we do our own oceans, is so naive.
I tend to accept on some level, that there might be an immaterial world, (please don't confuse this concept with heaven or an afterlife) not because I fear death, but for the simple fact that it confuses my mortal human mind. something that doesn't make sense, doesn't nesicerilly cancel itself out, it might just mean that we have not the capability to conceive it yet. now some will say "that way of thinking opens the doorway to myth".
but you see I'm not jumping to conclusions here, I'm just admitting that I'm a stupid human, compared to what I could be and that not everything is so black and white.
I don't know which I doubt more.
the existence of god, or an open minded atheist.