Hey There, Wondering if you could help
Hello all, I posted here a long time ago but it's been quite awhile. Anyway, I wasn't sure where else to post this but I have been in a real bad place for a few years so I thought I would turn to you. Now I consider myself an agnostic/atheist or something like that, but my family is major Christian, hardcore conservative Church of Christ, anti-evolution and as literal as can be. Now, I am not an argumentative person, and they push buttons in me that cause me to want to fight fights they refuse to let me win, due to a combination of emotional appeal and bullying. So, the fact is, they want their little perfect world where all their kids believe what they do forever, and in order to have personal peace I have continually been lying to them that, that one time I tried to make a case for that being wrong, I was misguided and have been faithfully attending church somewhere, etc.
Ok, so, bottom line, it's been a few years of this and I don't know what will ever happen-I'm resigned they are so hard nosed and stubborn things will never change. I mean I pointed out contradictions and they said it didn't matter, pointed out the Matthew prophecies all being out of context and ridiculous, etc, even though they're literalists, and and they said that the most important thing was to believe in something. And of course their beliefs involve forcing it on others-so I mean, ya know, you know how it is, I can't begin to get through to them, you've heard it all, there must be a higher power, I will pray for you, how can you do this to me, yeah. So anyway, what I'm trying to say is, and maybe some of you have been in this situation-since they still alternately cling to their precious sources, books like The Case for Christ, their true Christian scientists who know evolution is a hoax, and so on, and the burden of proof has to be on me totally of course-is there any rock solid case or argument or set of evidence or anything at all that you think could potentially be shown to them or thrown their way or anything to somehow debunk everything and convince them solidly 100 percent that whatever the truth is, it isn't the Bible? I mean, I have tried to just settle for that-I doubt there is any way to persuade them of any other viewpoint.
One other thing-I also realize that their fear of Hell from childhood plays into this, and I have thought of trying to use the argument that if you interpret the old and new testament just so, it's actually telling you to ignore everything it says. But I very much doubt that will work. So, basically, if anyone has any advice, encouragement, ideas, or stories of experience to help me, I would appreciate it.