Why I'm a theist or a confused agnostic
Sorry for just joining a pro-atheist message board and unloading my random thoughts. I spent a weekend with a friend of mine who is an atheist and I listened to him go on and on about atheism. I never entered into any sort of argument with him, I would just rather not go there (even though I agree with him on some points). So I post to just unload and perhaps "go there" with other atheists.
Simply put I believe in god because I observe an elegant order to universe. I see god in things like images from hubble. Looking at the night sky fills me with a sense that there is something larger than myself. Take music for instance, I could pick up a guitar and just strike random notes which would sound like crap. However put that guitar in the hands of skilled player and they basically play mathematical sequences that are pleasing to ear. I also have a hard time believing that the universe came from nothing. I believe that god created the universe and life. However I believe that these things happened through a scientific process.
I simply can't accept that death is a lights out situation. My mind reaches out to understand the unknown, to think that death brings and end to that frustrates me. Because of that I believe there is an afterlife. My belief is that in death you are rejoined with god. (now I'm going off the deepend) Since I believe that you are rejoined with god, I have to believe in not being joined with god (a hell if you want). My hell is not a place where you burn and little men with pitchforks poke you all day. My hell is either A) not knowing and communing with god -- being left to know that you could know but you never will or B) taking a dirtnap. Now becuase I have to believe in a heaven/hell situation, I have to believe in a criteria for getting to those two places. There has to be a retribution for evil actions. I can't accept that some fool can shoot innocent people in a crowd, turn the gun on himself and then be magically whisked away to what I consider heaven. From that I have to believe there is a way to get to heaven. Thats where I see (insert religion here) coming into play. I believe that by trying to understand god through your religion and by understanding science as a means to better humanity gets your ticket stamped for "heaven".
Having said that I believe that religions and religious texts are mostly fiction. To me the argument for or against god always goes south when atheiests and theists start quoting the bible/koran/<insert text here>.
Bascially I believe in god because I want there to be a god. Just some thoughts.