I Wish Christianity Were True...
So… I’m an Ex-Christian… and what does the mainstream Christian think of this?
I’m sure the reactions are across the board, but here’s what it seems like to me.
They think that we made a ‘conscious’ choice to reject Christ… of course. Jesus said that he would never leave us nor forsake us, so it must have been our ‘fault’ that we abandoned the faith.
As an aside... It seems that I made the decision 'for Christ' with the same filter that I made the decision 'against christ' (if we can call it a decision). I didn't look at the facts and decide 'against' them for some miracle reason. I was COMPELLED to trust in Jesus because of where I was at the time. I would've said that his 'love' won me over and I was compelled to surrender. In my journey... I found myself COMPELLED to disbelieve the belief system that is simply broken, incongruent, hateful, exclusionary, and death to the human spirit. I had 'no choice' but to loose my faith when I looked at the whole picture after walking the walk for over 10 years.
I remember pleading with my ex-wife to understand saying…”You think I CHOSE this? You think I WANTED to loose the most valuable thing in my life? You think I didn’t do everything I could to maintain my faith? Don’t you think it kills me inside to loose the hope of ‘heaven’, the comfort in knowing that I know ‘The Truth’? Don’t you think I loved the excitement of church, the safety in the fold, and the friends that I’ve made? And on and on”
The fundamentalist world view doesn’t allow for the possibility that someone discovered that Christianity is a Myth and the blame rarely will fall on the churches ability to give rational answers to the quandaries of life and it MOST definitely is not the failure of ‘GOD’. So, where does it leave them in their search for the reason for the apostate?
Simple… it’s OUR fault as apostates. It’s our sinful, rebellious, and independent human nature that has torn us away from Jesus. In my experience, some don’t mind telling you this either. They simply don’t understand the walk we’ve had. Let the fear, guilt and condemnation fly!